01/02/2008

Defeating my Selfishness Part 2

Lets get the difinition of Selfishness or self-centred. To be devoted to self, adoring urself, Eve was created so Adam wouldnt be selfish. Eve had to be created so Adam would get away from self. And Adam would have never had the oppertunity too be like God if he was self-centred. Selfishness or to be selfish is devotion in ones own interest with carelessness with others. " i am devoted my interests i dont care about ur interests!!" Its a caring of or chiefly for self. Or self love or for only private advantage. Can u see ur self in this?? I still do these today at times. But im alot more aware of it.

Ok so as im writing this now im being led by the HS on where to go next. So im goin too Romans 12 verse 9

Rom 12:9 Let love26 be without dissimulation.505 Abhor655 that which is evil;4190 cleave2853 to that which is good.18
Rom 12:10 Be kindly affectioned5387 one to another240, 1519 with brotherly love;5360 in honor5092 preferring4285 one another;240

Rom 12:9 [Let your] love be sincere (a real thing); hate what is evil [loathe all ungodliness, turn in horror from wickedness], but hold fast to that which is good.
Rom 12:10 Love one another with brotherly affection [as members of one family], giving precedence and showing honor to one another. (Amplified)

Right so that word dissimulation--
It says in the amplified to let ur love be Sincere/ Let ur love BE the REAL thing. When something is dissimulated it means its fake. Let ur love be without hipocrasy Let ur love be the real thing. If your Loves not the real thing then its gonna be something fake. Thats what the church and our society has perfected. It has perfected fonyness. We are more religious people than we are christian people who have a relationship with Jesus because we know what its like to be fonie. We learn how to be fonie on the outside for what people see. So were not being true to ourself. We are not showing whats inside us. We Dnt express Love with this outer fonieness. We are good at making things seem what they really are not!! We've been developing in selfishness since the day we were born!! As Children we were selfish. We are selfish by nature. We are all told as children "Dont be selfish" And then as we get older our own ambitions, career, decisions even if it means u goota hurt somebody to get where ur goin. that kinda selfishness still exists.
So now too make it worse we go to church because thats the Goody Goody thing too do. But we still dnt get too the REAL issues of our lives. Well thats how it was for me and what i have seen. So we cover it up with spirituality. and we learn all of the right spiritual movements in church and the right halelujah's and Amens. And we do all the things that make us look like something WE ARE NOT!!! When u see it at church u know it fonie. Because whats real about u happens all the time. Whats fonie about u will only happen once or twice a week. Its the difference between being Glossy and having Character. Like for example. Charm is only for the moment u can switch it on and off whenever u like. But character is what u are all the time. So jus coz u got a high gloss on ya dnt mean its like that all the time. So we all do that we come too church we hug folks at church but we dnt ever hug them away from church.

This is why i try to be like i am. I despise hypocrisy. Id rather just be like who i am. Like u get preachers who put there preaching voice on, because they think it impresses u. And they use those weird fancy words that nobody understands but them. The way i see it if ur not like it at home dont do it anywhere else. So whatever u do is whatever ur gonna be developed in. and the problem with hypocrisy is u may have the oppertunity where u mess up where u got 5 hats n 5 faces n what if u put on the wrong one at the wrong time. Because its gonna happen. It happened to me!! U know ur driving with somebody n someone pulls out in front of u. Then they say they slipped up. "U ***** bla bla bla" lol "excuse me i slipped up" No u didnt slip up that was there all the time. We jus finally got to the real u. We been so busy demonstrating this other u, because u feared that we wouldnt like the real u. (this was a big thing of mine. Tryin to be someone else.) so u have to find a cosmetic look, that would make u loo good in front of every body. But when the pressure came on, what is not developed CAME OUT!! I would prefer someone to just come up to me and say "i hate ur guts" cos at least i know where it started at. Rather than someone coming n saying "Oh i love u dan ur a real blessing etc" and then go home and be complete opposite!! Hypocrisy!! See this is all based in selfishness.

So we could really read this scripture like this
Rom 12:9 Let love26 be without dissimulation.
Let Love be without SELFISHNESS , Coz all of that is based in selfishness!!! Let LOVE BE WITHOUT SELFISHNESS!! because selfishness always breeds hypocrisy. Selfishness always seeks to destroy LOVE!!! It is a robber. It makes men fonie. It breaks up friendships. Selfishness wrecks Homes and families. It RUINS CHURCHES!!! It DESTROYS LOVE. And yet Love is the only force that can destroy selfishness. The only force on the planet. No amount of will power can destroy it. Love is the only force that can destroy wat we have been devolping in since we were born. Because thats Satans avenue into our life. Selfishness. We point fingers at everybody because it easier to point fingers than to point fingers at urself. We are always saying and pointing that needs to change he/she needs to change etc. But u know what the biggest change u can make is?? Its YOURSELF.
I have a little prayer for this which i have on my lighter it goes.

God grant me the serenity to aceept the things i cannot change. (the world)
Courage to change the things i can (Ourselves)
And the Wisdom too know the difference!!
AMEN

I l,earnt i had too be careful when i was learning this subject. Because i started to try and play the Holy Ghost and start condemning people. Like in relationships etc. Like when their doing something u say " Wait a minute thats selfishness now. Ur being selfish!!" But then the HS taught me that theres a difference between identifying and helping somebody get delivered outta selfishness verses using selfishness to promote ur own selfishness.

Ill give u an illustration. Right so a wife says "i wanna go shopping" and the husband says "i dnt wanna go shopping today" then she says in order to get u to go shopping. "Thats selfish, remember what the pastor said" the only reason they are saying that is to fulfill there own selfishness. And now she is provoking him. " wateva dear, yea wateva im selfish and now the devil coming. Yeah im selfish and i still aint going!!! I dnt care wat u say getting mad at me trying to play the Holy Ghost. Provoking me. Because ur not misuseing something." We shouldnt do that. Can u see why??
Wouldnt it be better saying like as a friend. " dnt u think thats a little bit selfish" and ur only saying it not for ur own motive or not for ur own benefit. But for the benefit of the person growing in it. I had too be so cautious that i dnt try to become the Holy Ghost and convict my friends and people with this message. The Holy Ghost does a Fantastic Job without us trying to play it.

Now where are we lol. I can get so lost getting into all of this. Hope its not boring u. But u probably will have hit the red cross by now if it was. Soo..... Were now talking about the only solution. Lets now talk about How too get out of it. How do u get out of this selfishness?? What are the things u do?? Im gonna give u two paths u can take (which i took both lol) to get free from selfishness.

Number 1) Creating God conciousness. Instead of maintaining self conciousness. Now this is a big key because, In the very beginning God created Adam. And Adam had God conciousness. And when Satan showed up and said let me see if i can get their attention off God and onto self. And we he got there attention off God and onto self. They were no longer God concious but now Self concious. So that now tells me something. So that now explains to me whyit is so VITAL and so important for me to read my bible listen to tapes. Do bible studies. Pray spend time with God. Practice the presence of God. Come to church. Fellowship with people who believe what i believe. What?? what is God trying to do?? He is trying to keep our attention off US and on HIM! "But ye know i dnt feel like reading my Bible", Why?? because the reading of that Bible takes u away from urself to God. "Im tired of praying i can Pray for no hour" why?? Because Satan is trying to maintain whats giving him victory, Selfishness. So when you begin to pray like that it takes u away from u to God conciousness. We have developed Self Conciousness all our lives. We spend 8,9-12 hours a day on our selves. And God is sayin, Man i gotta get u away from urself. Or that snake gonna creep in the Garden again. READ the BIBLE, SING SONGS worship God. PRAISE and THANK GOD for everything. PRAY. Get ur attention off urself n onto God. PRACTICE the presence of GOD!! So when we have our attention on our selves. We hiding from the presence of God like Adam n Eve did when they were realised they were naked. They hid them selves from the Presence of God. We gotta stop hiding our selves from His presence. God wantrs us to find his presence and dwell there. And God consiousness will keep u away from self conciousness. (which is hard to do!! But we have to practice it) This isnt something that u cant do right now n start practicing. Developing a conciousness for God.

Number 2) Perfected LOVE. In 1 john 4:18
1Jn 4:18 fear is not in the love, but the perfect love doth cast out the fear, because the fear hath punishment, and he who is fearing hath not been made perfect in the love;
Ok we know that fear is born out of what?? selfishness. So if perfected Love cast out all fear then how do u know that selfishness has gotta go to. SO heres a key here perfecting ur Love walk will cast out selfishness and fear. Well how do i perfect Love?? and in perfecting love i know ive got to perfect temperance and all the other components that make Love. How do i do that?? By practicing Loveing!!!!! The old saying " Practice makes Perfect" is perfect. Practice all those components of Love. Where do u start?? Practice Loveing at home/work/children/friends etc. PRACTICE!!! and practice consistently. Not when u feel like it!! Like in relationship. Things are bound to happen to ya. And these are oppertunities for Development. Thats why God does everything through relationship. Because he uses relationship for DEVELOPMENT!! Thats why u cant ever develop to a point goin Home not wanting too see anybody. U think thats the solution. When infact ur gonna be more self concious than u were before. Infact it was selfishness that got u to stay away from everybody. (I did this and things got worse hiding away) And ur missing all the wonderful things that come through development and through relationship. And so when a rough time comes in a marriage thats not the oppertunity to run away, No u can say right this is an oppertunity where i can develop the fruit of the Spirit Amen. You want a good marriage or relationship. N u say u want that. Well its gonna cost something. Good marriages dnt just fall of trees. Loveing practicing Loveing. Developing ur Love. By taking advantage of the oppertunities o develop in LOVE. A crisis will really show ur character and the type of Love u really have and not what u say u Have. Its easy to love when there aint no pressure around. And when a crisis comes up turn round n say Right Lord lets do this and when u do u will come out stronger than before.

Lets look at
Joh 15:12 `This is my command, that ye love one another, according as I did love you;
See he says This is my command. So its not our choice. Oh so developing in love is not ur choice. So what im talking about here God didnt say u can decide wether or not u wanna do it. This is a commandment like Thou shalt no Kill. Develop in Love i command u 2. I command u 2 walk in LOVE. Oh my goodness its the greatest commandment. why is it?? To break this commandment of love, its almost a waste of time to keep all the rest of them. In fact ur not really gonna be able to keep all of them if u break this one. Hypocrisy will kick in! And u think u keeping the rest of them. But ur really not. Because with whatever u are doing without keeping this commandment. Its void!! it aint workin. So he says i command u to LOVE. So how we gonna handle that when we see Jesus, "I command u to walk in LOVE."
Then he says
Joh 15:13 greater love than this hath no one, that any one his life may lay down for his friends;
THis is a commanment and u wanna know what he says how to Love one another. Lay ur selfishness down and my time is all yours!!!.

I just wanna say a litlle prayer. I pray this everyday and would like to share it with you
" as of today i am no longer a selfish person! as of today, Im a LOVE person. i rebuke hypocrisy, it has no place in my life. And i will move in great love. Creating God conciousness. Instead of Self conciousness. I am on my way, to the better. And Love is the more excellent way in Jesus name. Amen"

I am really enjoying writing all of this. There is still more to come on selfishness. All the studying and Reading and growing i have done since i became a christian has been about ways to live Practical ways more than the spriritual side. Because i was so disfunctional i had to get my house in order first. Get a good building block upon Jesus's Foundation for me to to build on. So more will be added again tonight or tomoorrow. depending on how long it is lol. God Bless u all.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Thank you Danyool.!

Anonymous said...

What a lovely blog dan, i love the part about self consciousness and God consciousness, that is really lovely , and right in when u say the more you grow in Gods consciousness the more you will get rid of self consciousness.
And that everything we do, if it does not have LOVE in it , then its void, you write very well, and that is God given, gbu x

sansmile said...

I see an opening up in your heart here xxxx
What if i said to you that Adam was NEVER perfect????

God Bless you Dany xx
Sansmile (sandie)

sansmile said...

oH BTW see my entry on my blog xx
Sandie